Brandon Hay

I ship out April 25. Be gone for 7 months about. When I get address info and such, I will give it. Go National Guard.

I hung out with a girl with one leg yesterday. She almost beat Haddle with her knub. Or threatened to anyway.

I went to Jim Pace Pontiac with the folks. Upon the use of finagling, I am getting a car tomorrow. Payments will be just about $250 a month or less. 2002 Grand Am. 52,000 miles. CD PLAYER! It runs very nicely. I am excited and happy!

My car is just about exploding. It got worse. The cancer spread, or something. I need another one. The parents be no help, due to the fact that they have no sense. I mean, they bought the car I am currently driving. So, anybody got any advice? Places to go, things to look for, things to avoid, such and such? It would be extremely appreciated.

The first call to my dad has been made. Everything has been laid out. Now it's just finding out if there are any job openings at the factory, and if I truly want to move to Arizona. If I do get a job, it would be 40 hours a week working jackhammers, and shoveling, and cleaning stuff. It would be $9.40 an hour. I....am not sure yet.

I HATE MY CAR! It smokes from just about everywhere, it barely moves, slides in snow, smells terrible from everywhere......and is probably going to explode. IT DRIVES BETTER WITHA FLAT TIRE! I don't even know if I'm gonna make it to work the next few days....

UPDATE: and now it's my fault they bought a piece of shit car that broke itself down just sitting in my driveway. STUPID MOTHERFUCKERS! I am so close to calling my dad and seeing if I can still to AZ. Daily I wonder what I have around here that's worth staying for. And daily....I really can't think of anything. This sucks.

So much fun at the concert last night. I fully enjoyed all three bands. But, I can't hear very well. Oh well, it's the price I pay for seeing Ill Nino and Static X in one night. So fucking awesome though. And it was only $20 to get in. I woulda payed triple that. Well, off to Wal-Mart, for my car needs oil.

Happy Thanksgiving.



















That is all.

I chatted with Kayde. We are cool. My worry of the week is gone as well. And, I heard about a new rap group. It's Mike Shinoda from Linkin Park on his own pretty much. I am enjoying it more each time I hear it. That's about it.

My worry of the week is that I am as batshit insane as most of the girls I date. Some friends think I'm a-ok. A couple think I'm not. Why not tell me what you think? Just from things you've observed about my behaviors, things I've said, such and such.

I'm not sure why....but I am rather worried.

HINDER LYRICS

"Lips Of An Angel"

Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those wordsa it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it so hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late

I'm going to get proof. This way, I'll know for sure one way or the other. Hoping it's the outcome I want, but I don't care as long as I get proof.

Whenever things happen in my life that kinda mess me up or are important to me, I usually can't tell anybody. I told Kayde something about today, and then she wouldn't talk to me the rest of the night. We're talking an hour of awkward silence at Perkins in Austintown. She wouldn't say a single word. No matter what.

I'm just gonna keep everything inside once again. It worked for me before, it can now.

EDIT: I did not listen to my own advice, and told Haddle. This got me hit, then fake frisked. I am dumb.

Got thrown in the middle of drama tonight. shitty shitty drama. I wasn't even directly involved in it, but the fact of being around it for so many hours caused my stress to go wacky, which caused my esophagus to close. Did I spell that right? I thought I would be able to handle hearing trash talk from all angles better than that.

Am I really such a foolish individual? Should I just find some way to move to Jamaica and be homeless? Oh well, answers will never be truly reached.

Otherwise, it was a good day.

If you read this,
even if we do not speak often,
comment with one memory of me.
It can be anything you want,
just as long as it happened.
Then post this on your livejournal.
See what other people remember about you...

stolen. that's what this was.

Stupid friend zone.

for as OK as I'm acting, I realized today that I'm really not.

AMAZING!

I just watched Advent Children on my DVD player. Gotta love VCDs. Anyway, I don't know what to think. I can't say good or bad right now. But, I would like to watch it again.